Merriam-Webster explains this term so clearly.
Trust is being able to put your confidence in someone or something. Trust is being assured in one's character, ability, words, or actions. Trust is dependence on someone or something- having hope.
Trust is hard.
As humans, it's hard to trust anyone but ourselves, especially when you have had people in your past let you down. It's hard to determine who to trust and sometimes seems nearly impossible to let go of all control and truly give all the trust over.
Recently, my faith has been tested. All control of certain situations have been taken out of my hands. I have felt helpless, defeated, out of control. I don't like this feeling. Being vulnerable is not an easy things for me to do. It's hard for me to ask for help. It's hard for me to admit that I can't do things on my own, and that's what has been a large struggle in my relationship with God. God wants us to call out to him like a child does to their father because he IS our father. God wants us to know that we need him, and he is there.
I reached out to my Coffee Club girls.
If you don't know what Coffee Club is... Coffee Club is a group of girls that I have grown IMMENSELY close to. It is comprised of a group of humans I can trust. I've been vulnerable with them. I've shared with them. I've broke bread with them. I've cried and celebrated with them but most importantly I continue to pray with them and for them. These ladies have been my rock for over a year now and although we aren't all close in distance as we used to be- we continue to pour into each other and I love that.
...so as I was saying, I reached out to the Coffee Club. I explained to them everything going on and verbalized my struggle to know if I can trust that God is working on this and hearing this.
The beauty of having a group like the Coffee Club is having a group of ladies that will speak God's truth into you when all you can hear are doubts and the devil's lies.
I received replies of encouragement, prayer as well as one thing that hit me hard and really is the reason I am making this post public.
"Those moments of doubt come from the enemy. You don't have to worry about if you can trust God or not. You KNOW that you can. He sees it all."
Wow. This was the wisdom I needed to hear.
I don't know about you, but it's so easy to remind others of this when they are going through the darkness, but when you're in the midst of it yourself, it's almost as if you have blinders on.
If there is any advice I could give someone else there would be two things.
Trust God. There is nothing too big for him. There is no circumstance that he can't change. There is nothing that he doesn't know. There is nothing he can't heal. There is nothing that happens that he can't use for good.
Secondly, It's to surround yourself with people who strive to encourage, nurture and love like the Lord.
Find yourself a Coffee Club.
Below is the link to the song that was attached with that quote. Close your eyes. Listen. Absorb. And use today as the first day moving forward with rediscovered strength and trust in him.